Shame on any of my Deviantart friends for never hearing of "Within Temptation," easily one of the more ethereal, epic bands to grace my ears which has heard so much trite music as of recent which fails to impress with novel ideas and intricate lyrics. For anyone who write dark fantasy tales comprised of a romantic subplot should really listen to this band with their lyrics expressing love that ascends time and is emotionally based. Every time I listen to one of their songs; I am unable to intently scrutinize the lyrics for my mind becomes filled with various images related to my story. In addition, the lyrics of "Pale," a song about the desperate clinging to the remaining life within them resonates with my both my present and past struggles with anxiety.
In the midst of listening to "Angels" my mind brimmed with images related to my story and the major subplot explaining Cloe's submission to the deceitful lies of the conniving priest of the church who convinces her that women mean little to God and are mere pawns for men to use to coax their ailing souls via the use of sex. Cloe falls mindlessly for his lies and allows the pastor to convince her it's God will and purpose that the ravaging and quaver of her individuality due to the relentless sexual acts performed on her "In the name of God.." remains her only use in life. Being sort of a haunch Feminist in terms of both genders being wholly equal within the scope of God, I explore the sometimes frustrating journey of one woman trying to seek her. individuality within a theological world that tries to suppress her beauty. Not in anyway, Do I mean to criticize Christianity since I criticizing anyone who uses religion as a means of control and usurpation of peopl

For any hopeless romantics, metal fans, fans of Nightwish/Evanescence; be prepared to have your senses overwhelmed with the evocative sound of "Within Temptation." Within Temptation has aided in the exploration of the many faucets of myself and really awakened an element of myself which has remained dormant for so long, hindered by the stresses of daily life. For any of my Deviantart readers who've been wondering where I've been for the past couple weeks. I will assure you by saying I've been battling a sometimes insurmountable battle with anxiety and despair. Sometimes being a writer allows myself to become imbued with anguish, resulting from a stinted self esteem. I've always been masochistic with my manner of thinking, unrelentingly inflicting pain upon myself since I abhor myself more than anyone can ever imagine. Except is there any real reason to have such animosity for myself when so many others surround me and embrace me with love. But is my self absorbed psyche unable to realize the brim of love emanating off the bodies of those surrounding my limp form. Hopefully, I'll be able to sustain life within myself in order to remain active with the one activity which brings much joy to my life; writing. Anyways, Happy Valentine's Day (though I absolutely despise Valentine's Day since it's the most depressing of all holidays for those like me)